Vancouver (and some times Los Angeles) weirdo wears stuff, takes pictures, makes fashion blog.

Your Freak Flag

tattoo mermaid dress
Excuse my tired incoherence... but I've had a very eventful few weeks lately. It feels like I barely have enough time to do all the things I need to on my to-do list when days are flying by in blazing speed. As I type this post, it's 1am on a Monday morning. I don't know where my weekend went, but in my deliriously overworked and frazzled mind, every frame in this photo set looks utterly hilarious to me.

Have you ever had that feeling? As you look at photos of yourself you start to think, is that my face? Is that my elbow? IS THAT FRUITCAKE INDEED ME?!?

Fashion blogger loses mind
I started this blog with a specific aesthetic in mind -- whimsical, romantic, dreamy... while those are all elements of my sense of style, I just don't think I can photograph as such when the camera is pointed at me. There seems to be a disconnect between my sense of fashion and the way I can't stay still long enough to be captured in the way I envisioned.

And that's OK.

spinning in a mermaid dress
I'm still wearing the things I love, albeit presenting them in a way that I never intended. This definitely changes the look and feel of an outfit, and I guess this is the part where that saying, "It's not what you wear, but how you wear it," applies.

And how exactly am I wearing it?

Like if a rabid panda with crazy eyes had a baby with a hyperactive blob seal with motor skill issues.

And that's OK too.

a total mermaid princess at her castle
It took me a long time to be OK with myself, after being told I'm too loud, too quiet, too weird, too distant, too cold, too obsessive, too emotionless, too emotional... Yes I am all of the above, and I am also too busy to give a crap what people think nowadays.

I think it took a while for me to get over the awkwardness and feel natural while being photographed, and my natural state is to be in motion while making dumb faces -- but fashionably so. Over time, I have found that to suppress the hopping around, spinning, or jumping in order to obtain a tranquil, soft, feminine look is too difficult to achieve. It might be the aesthetic I like, but ultimately can't attain... at least not while I'm the one in the photos.

And that is also OK.

So hello, my name is Angel, I like to wear pretty things but act like a complete idiot while doing so. Welcome to my blog. I swear sometimes I talk about fashion in a way that makes sense.

How do you photograph? Does it align with what you wish to project to the world?

Photo cred: Collin Head @deklyn21 | EditingMe!
Outfit details: Dress: Sourpuss | Jacket: Billabong | Shoes: Ardene | Sunglasses: Ruffles | Panda necklace: A gift!
4 comments on "Your Freak Flag"
  1. You said IT ALL hahahah
    Sometimes, when I shoot my outfits, I also feel a bit uncomfortable. I mean: standing in a same place doing poses. It's kind of annoying, but I take the photos very seriously. And so I miss the chance to show who I really am wearing those clothes. And you did it beautifully. I loved all of your photos and how you are so cool in all of them :)

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    1. Your photos are beautiful! There's a quiet, poetic, dreamy feel to them and I LOVE your blog so much. It does get really awkward sometimes, especially when there are people walking around. One time, a group of tourists stopped to take pictures too, and I was just like... UMMMM??? *quietly shuffles away*

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  2. Your posts are always so fun to read.. I get quite a good laugh out of them in all the right ways. You make me smile. And girl, you always look amazing in all of your photos, but more importantly, your personality shines. I am painfully, *painfully* shy so I have a tough time with photos in that way.. I kind of always freeze up haha. Something I am working on every single day. It's quite difficult.

    You rock, Angel. Keep on doing you. Looks good on ya. ;)

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    1. Hahaha glad I can make you laugh! I get real joy from being a huge goofball and I'm super happy you have fun reading! Posing is tough though, especially if you're shy or get anxious around people -- it's entirely too easy to be too hard on ourselves sometimes. You gotta go hunt for some pretty yet quiet spots with little to no foot traffic. Easier said than done, but I have managed to find some little nooks and crannies that are hidden in trees and wedged behind buildings that can work!

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