How is your 2019 going so far?
It’s 6 days in and I’m livid. I feel like I’m being bombarded by unlucky streaks. I’m frazzled, I have too much to do yet get anxious when I have nothing to do.
I read an incredible article that seemed to be speaking directly at me. I highly recommend reading it. What do you think? Does it bring you down, does it make you angry? Do you vehemently agree or disagree?
Have you burned out?
I sure have. It feels like my hamster wheel is rusting at the hinges yet I am still sprinting as hard as I can.
In times like these, what do?
It’s cathartic to get it out. Even though I haven’t had time to do any more fashion posts. Even though I don’t have enough cash to go eat out and blog about it. Even though things are pure shit and on fire, I want to hustle.
Because I have bigger dreams still. That spark hasn’t died despite me feeling like I’m dead on the outside.
No unjust parking ticket, a lack of a fridge, potentially leaking dishwasher, tax lawyer fees, vet bills that are all sucking the paychecks right out of me can kill a dream. It might kill my chances at doing anything I want at the time that I want, but I have slog through it all.
So, list your goals, and start checking them off. Start with the short term ones (within 3 months) and then list the bigger ones (within 2 years.) Anything beyond that is anyone’s guess. Life is unpredictable. Goals shift, people change.
Here’s my list. What’s on yours?
- Lighting kit – ring light, lightbox.
- Start meal planning and food budgeting properly.
- Declutter, clean out my storage room.
- Do at least 1 indie film/music video a month.
- Use up work massage therapy insurance allotment.
- Start shooting product photos as a side hustle.
- Start cold calling production companies to get shooty shooty gigs.
- Pay off the following: New tires, lawyer fees, appliance repair/replacement.
- Camera equipment upgrade – new body and 2 prime lenses.
- Quit my day job.
This is already a lot for someone who’s burning out quickly… but if I want to get the things I want, I have to do the work, do more work, and then do some more work.
Along with the previous list, I’ve also decided to tackle the Dogwood 52 week photography challenge. I’ll cross post them here, but in case I forget, they’ll all be on my personal Instagram. (I’ve been trying to embed directly from Instagram for about 30 minutes and I can’t seem to, so here it is!)
Week one: Take a picture that tells us who you are, without actually showing your face.
Whether you’re running to your goals, or rolling pathetically towards them, AT LEAST YOU’RE HEADING THERE, NO MATTER HOW SLOWLY.
At least that’s what I tell myself every day.