Last year, I did some lighting for a photographer I had a serious style crush on. She is the opposite of me, her aesthetic is noticeably cohesive: muted, neat, serene, quiet. Whereas my aesthetic is all over the place: rich in color, varies in energy levels, chaotic. I know it’s a thing for people to …

I have, as many of us do, many tangled feelings of The Great Quarantining. Most people I know are brewing a sense of anxiety and agitation. They’re justifiably nervous, bored, uncertain, scared, panicky… a whole gamut of discomforts slowly simmering. I’ve never felt more calm. Of course, I have worries about my job (or lack …

These are weird times. Over the course of a week, things have snowballed so quickly that I haven’t completely understood it. And this is just the first wave. It was 9 days ago that I ventured out of my apartment at 2am to go to a Denny’s a few blocks away. I had a grand …

It’s been rough. I don’t feel like going into it, but it’s been rough and I’m in the thick of it all. I keep wishing the turbulence can be over, but it keeps coming in waves. I hope you’re all well.

You really can’t expect the unexpected. Although I guess on some level I expected it… I ate shit today. My feet kicked out from under me while I was crossing a street, I had stepped on a big ol’ smooth patch of ice gracefully donated by winter. As I was being grabbed backwards by gravity, …

Impostor syndrome. TLDR; the fear that you’re not actually competent in what you do, and that you’ve actually gotten there because of luck or a mistake. I have it pretty bad. Moreso, I have a deep seated belief that I’m not worth being paid for doing work related to what I love to do. And …

It’s in my head, but it’s also real. I don’t now how many other people experience this, because we all go about our lives differently, and think about things differently. But the biggest thing that hampers me is how I can’t get out of my never ending loop of thoughts sometimes. I get the tingle …

I assisted a lifestyle photoshoot today, and the aesthetic is minimalism. It makes me wonder what it is about empty spaces that’s so appealing. What is it about the absence of things that screams wealth? It almost seems like an oxymoron — the more you have in your bank account, the less you have in …

There are hardly ever days when I wake up and think to myself, Oh happiness and joy to this wonderful world! Today I woke up to gorgeous orange gold light peeping through my window, illuminating the hard geometric patterns of the building being birthed next door, pooling my apartment in a quiet dream like, romantic …